todae mornin' i had a veh wierd dream...
i was walkin up the stairs... he n another guy was behind me... den he suddenly speed up... den we sort of walked up the stairs together... i was damn wierd larz... cuz its lyk walkin side by side... den aft... got tis gatherin in the MACs... den my back was facin the glass... den i saw him standin outside... dunno y... haiya... the dreams i had was damn wierd larz... dun seem to make any sense... besides... i thot thru fer so long... i decided tad i shld nort hav ani high hopes lerz... thot tad i shld realli start concentratin on other tings... however it duz not mean tad i dun lyk him... its juz tad... i learn how to let go of tings and understand... sumtings juz culd not be held onto... no matter how much effort u put in... sumtime we hav to let go of the past so tad its not so miserable...
wad happens in the future... its lyk a complete blank to me...
frm now on
i shld not shed animore tears fer him...
i will not do tings to get his attention...
i will let go of the past tad we had together...
i will hav to make it clear to myself tad he duznt care... derefore... i shld do der same to him...
he was wad i longed for... dreamt abt... proud of... burt now... he is goin to be the memory tad i cherish... n keep at the deepest end of my heart... soul n mind...
love i'll never admit
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