So long nva blog ler...
hai~
seems tad the world hav changed... ya.. haha... get to noe god even better fer the past few weeks... ya... he appeared in my life... he changed me... into a better person... one tad noe him betta... ya... i sudden realised tad all the EVIL tings i've done in the pass is lyk... not making him proud... ya... so i'm trying to be hsi reflector n make him proud...but i dun tink he is proud of me yet... cuz i still m disappointing him...
ya... i was suppose to ferget n not care or even curious of wad he is doing.. wad he is tinkin.. n stuff... but hai~ i'm juz disappointed in myself... neva hav i been such a failure... frm lyk last year... i sae i wana ferget him... but until now??? wad happen... its still him tad appears on my mind... freak it lorz... hai~ y is it so... i wanted even get his attention... freak it... i m suppose to change the mentality i m having now... i told myself not to care animore... focus on god... but sumhow the picture of him juz find its wae into my life.. i realli dunno wad to do ler...
juz ytd... aftnn... during lunch break... got one girl wan to commit suicide... siao one lorz... wad der hell... juz cuz of a guy she lyk tad... if she jumped down... den i wuld hav jump down so many thousand times... y let sumting lyk tad over rule the love tad god gav us... god is realli Great... he pulled my tru an ordeal... been dere fer me in my darkest hours... neva left me alone to face all the temptations n depressed times... he was even dere to share my happiness... if by commit suicide can solve all problems... i wuld hav jump long ago... i wont even hav been here now bloggin... ya... but... i inflicted pain on myself... i used a scissors n pen knife to cut myself.. but... i've learnt.. by bleeding ur pain wont go off... by dying ur problems are still left dere unsolve... y not try to face it n overcome it...
fergiving sumone is not easy yet not difficult... in the past i owaes hate tis guy hu is big mouth... ya... he spread alot of tings arund... but... still... he was not tad bad lar... i juz... dun lyk him spreading so much rumours... trying to get attention... ya... but still... now i dun hate him not lyk him... juz neutral... nva tok... haha... juz lyk my gor... we became distant... so sad... wad to do...
muz pia fer my EOY ler... my results kena sai...
aim to get into
1) VJC }impossible
2) TJC (tamasek) }impossible
3) SINGAPORE POLYTECHNIC ( most lykly going dere... haha... my fwens n cuzins r dere)
4) CATHOLIC JC
5) MERIDIAN JC
dun tink can make it into any JCs... maybe not even serangoon or tampines... haha... i feel demoralize by my marks...
L1R5------- 26
L1R4------- 20
dunno how...
love i'll never admit
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