its been 1 year n 3 mths ler... hai~ still i dun understand exactly wad is happening... do u actualli see me exist in ur eyes... its seems tad i m a person hu duznt exist... wad m i exactly to u... i m juz a stranger... i tot we had i wunderful tym 2gether??? memories we spent n had??? where hav dey all gone.. hav u ferget dem??? werent dey memorable??? i still carn let go the bits n pieces of dem...
wad exactly is happening??? rek n zer is tellin me tad yes... but... ur actions juz duznt match the words dey spoke... hai~ i carn seem ter ferget the smile on ur face... the voice of urs... the actions... the wae u play basketball n soccer... the wae u walk... its juz un-eraserable... seemed to have carved on the walls of my brain n heart...
i realli missed da daes we spent 2gether... the daes where we played lyk mad... where hav dese daes gone... i realli missed dem... when can i hav dem back into my lyf again... when can we start to tok again... be lyk wad we used to be.. i carn stand the coldness between us... but i noe... i tink u dun wish to even speak to me... so wad's the use of me makin a useless wish... its juz too late to tok abt tis ler... i noe.. now tad u dun wish to tok... its alrite... perhaps i shld keep eberyting to myself..
all the pain i went tru u'll nva understand... the amt of tears i cried u'll nva noe... the depressing period i went tru u'll nva noe... i realli hope tad u can read tis.. but do u even giv a damn abt me??? mostly lykly the ans is NO.. all tis is not wad hurt me the most... wad actualli hurt me is actualli the tone u used when u msg me... the wae u actualli spoke.. it reaali hurt me... cuz at tad time i noe u wont giv a damn abt me animore... u aint the person hu wuld protect me animore... now i stand ALONE in the dark.. in the rain... all by myself... i realli hope all tis is a dream.. i hopre the rain water culd wake me up... but its seems impossible...
~~~missing the daes~~~~
duu u noe tad i actualli luv u... not ur bez fwen... guess u dun giv a damn...
love i'll never admit
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