i juz dun understand y we ppl r so dumb. 为什么我们要去等待一个不爱自己的人而没去珍惜过爱自己的人. i duno y. althou we noe tad dere is a hole in frnt of us, one big n deep hole. but we choose to walk into de hole wich cuz us to be depressed n unhappy. at de end we realise tad its hard to get out of the bloody hole. i felt so stupid. i mean y carn i juz doa roundabout the bloody hole instead of walking into it. tis is so dumb. haha. i took lyk so long to finally get out of it. it wasnt easy. at least he din make it easy for me to do so. when i was numerous times gng to climb out of the hole, he juz did sum stupid ting wich let me fall back in. i waited so freaking long. yet wad do i get in return? juz his coldness and hurting words. lol. duz tis call " i reap wad i sow?" i felt so freakin dumb, wasting all my precious time on such a heartless and cold person whom i knew not when i 1st noe him. dere's so many times i feel tad i shldnt haf startd tis. i was de dumb one.
Aint dere aniwae to let tings go. y do tings seem to get more n more complicated. i juz hate all tis wich are happening. y do i hav to always be de middleman. i m sick of it.
firstly to you who caused everyting to happen. u hav no mind of ur own. if u had listen to us long long time ago u wuld haf noe tad wad we told u is true. yet all de time u juz treat our words like some trash n throw it into de bin when u finished listening. do u noe u juz cause ppl frenship to be on the verge of breaking. all u juz did was to make de bloody situation worse. i mean carn u see tad u r de one causing all tis to happen. yet u pretended tad nth happen n fool around. i had enuf of tis. i juz hate u for being u. now i dun even wana tok crap wif u. cuz i felt i m wasting my precious time on u. i wasted so so much of my time. i felt so pissed of by joking around wif u now. i m considering nt to go to da bloody institute u ask me to go for de 1st 3 mths. cuz u r gng too. i had enuf of ur crap n u.
2ndly, to u whom i met on friday. dun brood over it animore. juz let tings go. i tink u shld haf taken my advice to giv u n ES a chance instead of wasting time on some stupid fool like him. n dun eat so much icecream nxt time if nt u r reallie gng to lao sai n vomit. oh. n dun waste ur tears on tad idiot animore. now tad he is nt worth ur feelings. n i realise u r nt afraid of person A, u r juz afraid tad tad idiot wuld tell u sumting tad u dun wana hear. juz face up to wad ever u hav to. tings will juz get better. God wont make u go thru wad u carn go thru. u noe it very well. n pls stop jking around wif da rumour tingy. it is causing some inconvenience here for me.
3rdly, to u hu i tok to on da fone. hey, dun tink so much. let tings go de way it shld. i mean dere is nth tad we culd do to it. besides we r de outsider. we r not suppose to intervene wif deir stuff. perhaps juz let dem solve de problems demselves. i felt so tired trying to help. haha. i learnt tad not all tings r in ur reach. so might as well juz let tings fall into deir places. tings will get better.
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